Third Sunday of Lent Year C
Yes, it’s true. I’ve finally gotten myself
enrolled for a long overdue fitness training programme. I’ve been putting it
off for a long time, often giving one or more of the following reasons: “I
don’t have the time,” “I don’t have the money,” “I don’t have the stamina to
endure the rigorous routine.” But at the insistence of some very good friends,
I finally gave in and signed on. Having been on the programme for the last 3
weeks has taught me an important lesson: physical fitness has a lot to say
about spiritual fitness. I’ve come to realise that as much as I need a personal
fitness trainer to ensure that I keep on the programme (I swear that I would
have quit after the first session without his help and motivation), my
spiritual life equally requires someone else apart from myself to keep it on
track. The reason is because we are masters of rationalisation – we are really good
in making excuses, and most of the time we
know they're lies. I’ve learnt from this whole
experience that it is much easier negotiating with a terrorist than with your
fitness trainer. I’ve exhausted my whole arsenal of excuses, ranging from bad
weather to crams. At the end of the day, the fitness trainer never takes a ‘No’
for an answer. And I guess that’s my salvation.
Making excuses is nothing new. We are
pretty good at it. Sometimes we
make excuses to try to keep from hurting someone's feelings. Sometimes we make
excuses to avoid responsibility for our actions. We make excuses for things we
did wrong, times we failed, things we don't want to do, situations we don't
want to be in. You may be comforted to know that
Moses was adept at this. Moses grew up as a prince in Egypt, but fled from
Pharaoh after he had broken up a fight between a Hebrew and an Egyptian, and
killed the Egyptian. Having been in exile in the desert for about 40 years,
Moses was tending sheep near Horeb, when he saw a strange sight. Flames were
rising from a bush, but the bush wasn’t burning up. As Moses approached the
bush, he heard a voice calling his name. The voice revealed itself: “I am the
God of your father, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob.”
God then proceeded to share His plan with Moses: He had heard the cries of His
people about their oppression in Egyptian slavery. And He wanted Moses to join
with Him in their deliverance. At this point, Moses began presenting a series
of excuses, some of which may sound familiar to you.
First, Moses' response to his calling was
to say, “Who am I”. You’ve heard it often enough. Expressed in today’s
language, it’s simply stating what you believe to be a fact, “I’m not
qualified.” Second, the “Who are you?”
naturally follows the “Who am I”. Moses
pleads lack of knowledge in that he did not even know God’s name and what to
tell the Israelites. Moses’ third excuse to God was that he did not believe he
had the power to fulfill the calling that God had told him to do. It’s the
pessimist’s answer to every proposal, ‘Forget about it, it won’t work!’ The fourth
excuse was that his speaking and leadership abilities were lacking. In other
words, we lack the talent or gift to carry it out. But Moses’ final excuse to
God betrayed his real intentions - he simply did not desire to fulfill his
calling and lead the Israelites out of Egypt. So, there you have it, the
classic list of excuses to turn down any invitation from God to serve:
“I’m a nobody.”
“I don’t know enough about God or my
faith.”
“It won’t work.”
“I’m not gifted.”
And finally the classic, “Choose someone
else.”
Just like Moses, many of us grew up making
excuses. We make excuses when we
don't want to obey or listen. We make excuses when we don't want to go where we
do not wish to go. We make excuses when we don't want to do what is required of
us. Over time, we even come to believe in them. I don’t
go for confession because … I have no sin (yah, right!); my sins are too
trivial; I don’t see the point of going for confession because I’m going to
repeat the same sins again; I don’t understand why we need to confess to a
priest when I can confess to God; I don’t know how to make a confession. And
then there’s the classical litany of occasional or infrequent church goers: I
don’t come to church, but there’s a good reason for it: I don’t have the time;
I’m too tired; I pray at home; I want to spend quality time with the family over
the weekends; I’ve got some important errands to run; I don’t understand what’s
happening; the mass is boring; the church is too hot; I’m having a headache; my
children don’t like to go to church so I have to keep them company; I angry
with the priest; I don’t like the people. Bottom line is this: I don’t want to
go to church because I don’t see it as something important. I have other
priorities … Period.
Excuses are actually lies
we tell ourselves to avoid dealing with unpleasant truths. They are
ultimately ways of avoiding responsibility, especially the responsibility for
our sins. When we choose to stop making excuses, we
then can begin to take steps to change. Accepting responsibility is the first
step to repentance. The second reading and the gospel reminds us that we should
take full responsibility for our actions and decisions. We cannot deflect the
blame and push it to others, neither can we plead ignorance because there have
been constant reminders and warnings in both the Scriptures as well as in our
daily lives. Ignorance is just another excuse. A mature Christian is ultimately
accountable for his life; he can’t blame fate, his past, his parents, his
environment or even God for what he has freely chosen to become. We are not
victims of our circumstances. It is true that we are not always in control of
time, the information which is disseminated or even the resources available to
us. But the problem is never about the lack of time; it’s more about the lack
of will to make changes to our priorities. The problem is never about not
knowing; it’s about choosing to be lazy or to work at learning. The problem is
never about the lack of money; but rather about how we choose to spend our
money.
It appears to me that regardless of the
excuses that man concocts for not doing the will of God, God always has an
answer. God, just like a hardy fitness trainer, will not take ‘No’ for an
answer. Here is the bottom line. If you have missed everything else, then get
this: it’s not about you. It’s never about you or about your personal
abilities. Moses’ excuses were based on his inadequacies and limitations. But
the story isn’t about the merits of Moses but the providence of God. God
matches Moses’ excuses with these answers – God will provide the strength, God
will give the support, God will be present throughout each moment of our lives,
God will teach and instruct us, God will make available the necessary
resources. God will provide companions for the journey. When God has chosen
you, he will provide you with the necessary grace and assistance to carry out
his will. So, no piece of excuse will suffice to silence God. God will never
give up on you. God will not take ‘No’ for an answer.
So don’t let excuses
run your life because it would mean living a lie, and Satan is the Father of
lies. Fr Peter once told me that we belong to the Adam’s family (not
Addams, mind you). We are in the business of blaming others and making excuses
for our own mistakes, just like our primordial parents. Spiritual growth means
facing the truth; it means having the courage and the humility to admit our unwillingness,
our laziness, our sinfulness, our lack of faith. Shoot down your excuses, face
the bitter truth, and start taking the steps necessary to change in the
direction you want to go. The Sacrament of Penance would be a good place to
start. Stop making excuses, get with the programme!